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ALIVE

When was the last time you laughed so hard you can almost die at that moment with no regrets?

When was the last time you felt so challenged and you want more of life's trials and tribulations?

When was the last time you made your parents proud?

When was the last time you cried over a romantic flick?

When was the last time you left your worries and just enjoy nature?

When was the last time you ddidn't just talked to God, but listened attentively too?

When was the last time you felt so ALIVE?

A Prisoner's Plea

"If you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner." - James Frey

I am forever grateful for everything you've done for me

I can never thank you enough for all the sacrifices you've gone through just for me

But you have to understand and know how to let me go

I am old enough to take care of myself, but still you don't see that

You treat me like a prisoner. And I am suffocating.

F U C K.

I want you to be my bestfriend. But your critical eyes scare me.

I want to tell you everything about me. But I know I'll only dissappoint you.

I know I won't exceed your expectations of me.
Because you always expect me to be perfect.

And I am NOT. No one ever is. Goddamnit.

You want me to be the person you envision I would be 27 years ago.

But please accept that you cannot control MY fate.

Please understand I AM NOT YOUR PRISONER.

I have my OWN life too.

And if you want to CONTROL it, well Congratulations. You WIN.

I am the most SUCCESSFUL yet MISERABLE person in the whole world.

That's what you want right? Well Done. FUCK.

Race to Finish

It's not just about winning.

It's about conquering your limitations
and defeating your weaknesses.

It's all about you and how you accomplish it.

It's about you not giving up.

It's about your race to the finish line.

It's what matters... in LIFE.

The best things in life are free

Describing why I love you would take me a year,

All the superfluous adjectives found in Mr. Webster

You hold, my dear.

I can compare you to a sunny weather,

which always brightens me up in my darkest hours.

And when it rains,

you hold an umbrella for me.

Without complaints,

you take good care of me.

We don't talk or see each other very often,

But we both know we're still the best of friends.

Whatever happens, we remain that way.

And nothing could ever take that away.

We believe we're not just past-life sisters,

but we also believe each other to be our soulmates.

It's true when they say

that the best things in life are free.

And you're one of them, the best things that's ever happened to me.

To my bestfriend, Mary Grace Mendoza-Romero, I miss you and I love you.

What Lies Ahead

What we all fear. It's happening.

What we all didn't want to witness. It's near.

What we all perceive before as impossible. It's for real.

Mother Earth beckons.

Nature's wrath has begun.

The ocean that was once blue,

the sky we once knew...

concealed by smokes,

buried in gray strokes.

Dear Heavens, we plead...

hope no one ever bleeds,

no one ever cries again

over nature's vengeance of pain.

We can only hope for the best,

for whatever lies ahead.

But we all know Dear Lord,

in this blinding battle, you are our sword.

INGAY!!!

Natotorete sa boses mong tunog lata
Hindi mo pansin na ang lahat tingin sayo'y isdang malansa
Akala mo kung sino ka kung umasta
Daig mo pa ang isang artista


Hindi mo batid na lahat ay natotorete
Sa boses mong sinlakas ng sinturon ni hudas
Wala kang pakielam sa mga tao sa paligid mo
Pakiramdam mo'y pag-aari mo ang buong kwarto


Ang sanhi ng ingay lahat ay galing sa'yo
Maruruming salitang lumalabas sa bibig mo
Hindi ka prinsesa, gaya ng sabi mo
Mas malinis pa ang pulubing tahimik kesa sayo



*para sa opismeyt kong ubod ng ingay

I want to serenade you with my words, for this is all I have. I never knew you were that beautiful. I didn't notice it before 'cause I was intimidated by the way you carry yourself. You exude confidence no one can seem to shake. The longer I get to stare at your face glowing, the more you're capturing my heart. The more I get to know the deepest ends of you, the more you take my breath away. You're an angel. You are my angel. You saved me from the dark. You're impossible. Your perfection never fails to amaze me. I sometimes can't help convincing myself that you're real. You're a dream that GOD has made come true. This joy I'm feeling whenever you're near seeps through my veins and I can't move. I'm frozen, I can't even speak. This is how you make me. In Love so deeply.

What you are to me

You have no idea how great you are

Your humility sometimes amazes me

'Cause you don't know how beautiful you are

You don't know how special you are

I oftentimes think I don't deserve you

Sometimes I feel you're just too good for me

How do you do it?

Are you just naturally perfect?

The way you walk, the way you talk,
the way you smile, the way you laugh

Simple things about you that captured my heart

This is surreal.

All of this.

You and me.

So magical.

(Que vous m'êtes French version)

Que vous m'êtes

Vous n'a pas d'idée que vous êtes grand

Votre humilité me stupéfie quelquefois

‹ Vous causer ne sait pas que vous êtes beau

Vous ne savez pas que vous êtes spécial

Je pense souvent que je ne vous mérite pas

Quelquefois je me sens que vous êtes juste trop bon pour moi

Comment vous le faites ?

Etes-vous juste naturellement parfait ?

La façon vous marchez, la façon que vous parlez,
la façon vous souriez, la façon vous riez

Les choses simples de vous qui a capturé mon coeur

Ceci est surréaliste.

Ceci tous.

Nous.

Donc magique.

(What you are to me - English version)

goodnight

Goodnight.

I will be sleeping calmly, knowing you're right beside me.

Hearing me breathe soundly in my sleep.

Your touch on my face in memory, I keep.

Goodnight.

My Beloved

Emptying the hatred and hurt my past has caused me.

Continuing to bring happiness within me.

I am yearning for more of you.

I want to drown with my love for you.

You seek me in my darkest of days.

It's amazing how you show your love for me in different ways.

Haven't felt like this in quite a while.

In my face, you've tattooed a smile.

With you, I will not falter.

Because of you, I feel much better.

Comment avez-vous été ? (How have you been?)

Le bon Jour à tout!

My last post was like 8 months ago. A lot has happened to me since. I've been busy with my work and my singing career. Also been busy with problems in our family. Also been through a self analysis phase. But everything's good now...

Well, I'm here again, I'm back. And, I'll be posting more again, hopefully, if I'm not that busy. =)

Silent Admiration

I love you even if you've caused me pain. I love you still even if you don't care about me at all. I love you from afar, as you held her hand. I love your hands that caresses her hair everyday. I love your lips that kisses hers every night. I love your shiny hair while you brush it up against your forehead. I love your smile, even if you can't remember my name. I love how you wear your shirt so neatly. I love your smell everytime you cross my way. I love your eyes that stares at me blankly. I love how you walk while holding your head up high. i love the confidence you exude. I love hearing the tone of your voice, so manly. I love how you speak, so decent.

I love you in Silence.

Cuddly Bears

All pictures taken @ SM Makati last Feb. 14, 2008

They who...

Wanting to hide from them. They who condemn others who are not good enough. Others who were not able to surpass their standards. They seek faults and mistakes from these people to make them feel little of themselves. For them to feed their egos, they condemn those who sinned, as if they were clean themselves. They embrace their authority like no other. Small people look up to them, and they savor the moment.

ANG AKING NAIS

Malimit kong maramdaman na ako'y mag-isa. Nakakatawa dahil alam kong maraming nagmamahal sa akin at sumusuporta sa akin. Nariyan ang pamilya ko. Ang aking iniidolong ama, na kahit sa edad na 60 ay kumakayod pa rin sa trabaho para may maipakain sa amin. Ang aking mahal na ina, na sa halos buong buhay nya ay pinaglilingkuran pa rin nya kaming mga anak niya. Ang mga kapatid ko, na kahit hindi ko madalas makita at makausap, ay alam kong kapag ako ay nadapa, kakaripas sila ng takbo para tulungan akong tumayong muli. Ang mga kaibigan ko, na may malaking tiwala at bilib sa mga kakayahan ko. Sa mga kakayahan ko na ipinagkaloob ng Panginoon, na siyang nagpapaligaya sa akin at bumubuo ng aking pagkatao.

Malimit kong naiisip na ako'y praning na. Marami akong iniisip. Pati mga bagay na wala namang kabuluhan, o kaya'y para sa ibang tao ay wala namang kwenta, iniisip ko pa. Kung maaari lang ibenta ang utak, sulit na sulit sa akin dahil gamit na gamit na ang utak ko. Pagmulat nang bahagya ng aking mata sa umaga, hanggang sa pagsara nito bago matulog ay umaandar pa rin ang aking isipan.

Malimit kong sabihin na ako ay nahihirapan na. Marami akong hinaing at reklamo sa buhay. Kahit na kung tutuusin ay isa ako sa mga maswerteng nilalang na ipinanganak sa mundo.

"Nais kong matuto.
Matutunang maging maligaya at makuntento
sa kung anong meron ako.
Nais kong maging maligaya.
Maging maligaya sa buhay na ako'y meron na.
Nais kong magpasalamat.
Magpasalamat sa kapalarang ipinagkaloob ng Panginoon."

cynical me

"My life is a routine.
Which often makes me wonder
what else is there to look forward to.
I really am a pessimistic person
and I'm not proud of it."

My Definition of LOVE

SUFFOCATION.

I cannot breathe.

SUFFOCATION.

I am drowning.

SUFFOCATION.

I am fervently grasping.

SUFFOCATION.

I am dying.

" PLASTIC "

Nagtataka ka ba kung bakit malayo ako

Naguguluhan ka ba kung bakit lumalabo ang tingin mo

Natatakot ka ba na baka hindi pala totoo

Ang iyong nadarama pala ay pawang guni-guni

Ang iyong kapalaran pala'y iba sa iyong inaasam

Bakit hindi mo masambit ang tunay na hangad mo

Sa iyong mga mata'y tila may sinasabing taliwas

Taliwas sa ipinapakita mo

Sa mga kilos mong hindi naman pala totoo

Sa mga galaw mong hindi pala bukal sa puso mo

Marami na ang nakakasaksi

Sa hangarin mong tunay palang marumi

Ibang-iba sa ipinahahayag mo sa amin

Ibang-iba sa sinasabi ng iyong salamin

SINO KA BA?
HINDI MO BA NAITANONG SA SARILI MO 'YAN?
SINO KA BA?

my ideal self

Enchanting

That's who you are.

Embracing

That's how you treat life.

Beautiful

Is what you are.

What you are

is what I want to be like.

Perfect

Like anyone else would dream of.

Forever

I'll be dreaming of you.

painting above: Spoiled by Enayla

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