Xtyna Upclose: A Prisoner's Plea

"If you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner." - James Frey

I am forever grateful for everything you've done for me

I can never thank you enough for all the sacrifices you've gone through just for me

But you have to understand and know how to let me go

I am old enough to take care of myself, but still you don't see that

You treat me like a prisoner. And I am suffocating.

F U C K.

I want you to be my bestfriend. But your critical eyes scare me.

I want to tell you everything about me. But I know I'll only dissappoint you.

I know I won't exceed your expectations of me.
Because you always expect me to be perfect.

And I am NOT. No one ever is. Goddamnit.

You want me to be the person you envision I would be 27 years ago.

But please accept that you cannot control MY fate.

Please understand I AM NOT YOUR PRISONER.

I have my OWN life too.

And if you want to CONTROL it, well Congratulations. You WIN.

I am the most SUCCESSFUL yet MISERABLE person in the whole world.

That's what you want right? Well Done. FUCK.

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